CW: 110
GW: 100

And a nicer, firmer body. Yay. I can do this. Without getting all emo and crap.

Things to do
[ ] History notecards
[ ] Go to Daniel's afterschool tomorrow
[ ] Buy James' jacket

I know that it's over, but I need some closure

Saturday was a bad day.
I heard something I wish I hadn't about him and the rest of them.
I didn't know whether to shake it off and not let it get to me or if I should just have a clean cut from him now before I got too attached.
I chose the first.
But I was still very torn.

I was extremely exhausted today.
It started yesterday, Easter Sunday, after church, and the mood just continued over to today, probably because I didn't get any sleep doing hw.
There were a lot of upset feelings in me yesterday because I didn't get to see him.
Today, I didn't go to school; my mom told me to stay home.
She was upset at me though, and for what, I cannot understand; I think it might've been purely disappointment.

She then called me to tell me not to do hw until I got some sleep, knowing I stayed up all night.
I got into bed, but I was only an hour away from it being 10, which was the time I woke him up last week.
So I forced myself to stay awake for another hour and called him.
I called him about 4 times before he called me back with his "I just woke up" voice.
Needless to say, butterflies were flying in my stomach.

He noticed the weariness in my voice and asked me what was wrong.
I insisted that I was okay, and hung up the phone when he texted me.
He told me I sounded down and asked me what was wrong.
I wanted to reply 'everything' but I didn't and instead replied that everything was fine and wished him a good day at school.
I was exhausted, upset, and a little torn apart, but the fact that he cared put a little smile on my face.